Stubborn, Stupid, Silly Me

I never really learn. Tsk...tsk...while stuck in traffic yesterday going to work, I suddenly made a deal with destiny that if by some "miraculous intervention" I make it to work on time, it means that Hub is really 'the One'. Well, I was resigned to the fact that I won't make it, I know I won't make it... Aside from being stuck for an hour in traffic, the shuttle driver decided to cut his trip shorter by turning left at Emerald Ave. which made me walk a block, almost two blocks, actually. I was even stopped by the guards of the building since I still don't have my ID yet so it took me several minutes to log in and present another ID! Who would think that I would still make it before nine? My time card clocked in: 8:57!!! Whew!!! I did make it. So does that mean it's really him. In my dreams probably...well, that's how I see it. I texted him just to say hi and he didn't even bother to reply. When will I ever learn? And I thought it was over four and a half months ago. I thought he had stopped hurting me...but from the looks of it, he still does. The pain remains and continues to pierce my being. When will it ever stop?