My Friend is Getting Married!!!

It shocked me, really. My friend of 16 years is getting married next week! Whew, that was really surprising. It made me think of my own life. I feel happy for her but at the same time, I feel "more miserable". I still don't have a stable job and I also don't have a significant other yet while she's getting married to her boyfriend of 11 years. (Why do I always include numbers in my statements? Anyway...)Sigh. What am I doing? Am I wasting my life? Why can't I seem to find the right things and people? Am I bound for singlehood? I hope not. I want to have a family of my own someday; I don't want to die alone and lonely. I don't know why I'm so "miserable" compared to my friends...yes, I know that it isn't good to compare myself with others but I'm just wondering why I can't seem to have what they have. I am actually a lot blessed than some of them but when it comes to the love department, I think I'm the worst. I've been single since birth and I don't think I'll find "the one" before I turn a year older. Sigh. Why can't I be just contented with what I have? Well, it's simply because I want to have that someone whom I can share everything with --- my happiness, my angsts, my quirks, my everything. My parents won't be too happy seeing their eldest with them forever. I know they want to have grandkids in the near future but before that can happen, they have to have a son-in-law first but I have to have a boyfriend first. So where in the world will I find him? I've had two serious prospects but they aren't both interested in me, romantically speaking. The first guy likes another girl while the other one treats me like a makulit, kid sister he never had. So...I'm devastated. The dilemma of a girl born in a double standard society. Why can't girls court a guy without being branded as cheap? Tsk...tsk...bad society. Hmm...just wish me luck! I hope in a few weeks, things will turn out better and lovelier! Ciao!