Chaos

Sigh. For the past couple of months I've been so confused. Confused about life --- what should and should not be done. I have been so miserable that I am almost always cranky, grumpy...I'm even having skin breakouts because of this darn misery! Where is this all coming from? Well, I'm turning 28 but I still haven't found him or he hasn't found me. It isn't actually bad if you're single but people around me are making me feel that it is!!! Of course, I would want someone beside me but I cannot force things. I thought I already found him a year and a half ago but destiny had other plans. Six months ago, September 4 to be exact, supposedly our first year anniversary, he dropped the bomb, the truth is, I already knew about it. I only need an affirmation, well, he just did. She was six months on the family way. Great. Just great. They'll be married on the 10th, he said. Congratulations!!! Where does that leave me? Nowhere. Sigh. I would have wanted to tell him that had he broken up with her when he told me that he loves me then, he would have gotten married to me instead (which by the way, would have been a hundred times better). Well, what's done is done. I just hope they'll be happy. As for me, I have to move on and get on with my life. The problem is, I cannot do it faster if no one's going to make it a lot easier. Read: calling all eligible bachelors --- gwapo, mabait, smart from a reputable school, may equally gwapong kotse, has his own business or a very stable job, may sense of humor; kindly submit your resume together with a 2x2 photo, NBI clearance and medical certificate. Priorities will be given to those who will submit the requirements personally. Haay...life.