Christmas, Lex and Me...

It's Christmas and I am still loveless and hopeless. I was hoping that my barrage of text messages to my "big bro" Lex will make him realize that I like him not just as a "kuya" to a "makulit, kid sister" but as a significant other. For heaven's sake, can't he take hints? Does he want me to tell him straight in the face that I like him? This would be Risk #2 and if it doesn't turn out well, I'll probably head straight into the ICU. What's wrong with him or is it with me that he can't seem to like me the way I want him to like me? Am I really that plain-looking that he doesn't notice me? What's with the "I-want-a-girl-taller-than-me" rule? Is he just teasing me or he really prefers tall girls? So if that's what he wants, then I hope he finds a girl version of Yao Ming!!! Okay...I was just kidding. Can't a five-foot-one girl be perfect for him? Sigh. What about his promise that he's going to treat me out so he can give me his Christmas present? I hope he fulfills that or else I wouldn't talk to him anymore. I just want to get to know him better. I'm starting to like him...he's just so comfortable to talk with. I can say anything and everything I want to without care and he's there to listen. Why does he have to make me fall for him if he doesn't really like me? Sigh. Is this it or am I just on the rebound because of Hub? I think not. Lex had always been special to me...what with his phone-lecture antic...his super suplado ways and his braces! Yes, I admit that the few times I saw him, he somewhat reminded me of Hub only because they both possess single-syllable surnames but the similarity ends there. I started to like him because of who he is---the no-nonsense, "feeling" and smart guy who made me raise my eyebrow up the ceiling with his lecture on my professional duties! I started to notice that this "Del Monte Four Seasons in a can"- drinking engineering manager is actually nice. Sigh, again... I don't know if I'm turning him off with my makulit antics but I just want him to realize that I like him and that if he gives himself (and me, too) the chance then probably, just probably, he'll find the One he had been looking for. I just wish this season will "be filled w/ everything that means most to me and the coming year be filled w/ everything I'm hoping for"...just like what he sent me yesterday at 8:33 pm. How would I know if he likes me, too? I really hope we'll go out before the year ends. If we do, then, there might be a chance but if he doesn't make time for me, it only means, I should get lost. I am praying that it's the former. I don't want to spend the Year of the Dog in the ICU. ;) So Lex, when are we going out?;)


Although I'm currently unattached, I still manage to smile because I just found two new friends. Two insane, unaffected people who are as nice as they are naughty. Dac and Kat are exactly the friends I need. They never fail to light up my somewhat boring routine. I'm just so glad to have them as friends. My seven-week stay with that company seemed years because of those two!=)
I hope we'll be friends forever...


Happy Birthday Baby Jesus and thank You for everything You've given us!!!=) This Christmas is one happy Christmas and I'm hoping the New Year will be, too.
Merry Christmas everyone!!!