New Year at the ICU

Sigh. I texted Lex to tell him that he's so bad, he didn't fulfill his promise that he's going to treat me out. He replied that he'll make it up to me another time. But when will that be? Am I just making a fool of myself by thinking that he likes me, too? If that is the case then, I'm really a potential ICU patient. This is going to be another heartbreak if he doesn't reciprocate. My heart hasn't totally recovered from that first "stroke" and now this. Tsk...tsk...and I thought the Year of the Fire Dragon will be a lot happier in the "personal department" but I guess I really would have to wait. Sigh. Why am I subjecting myself to such torture? I wish I knew.

Christmas, Lex and Me...

It's Christmas and I am still loveless and hopeless. I was hoping that my barrage of text messages to my "big bro" Lex will make him realize that I like him not just as a "kuya" to a "makulit, kid sister" but as a significant other. For heaven's sake, can't he take hints? Does he want me to tell him straight in the face that I like him? This would be Risk #2 and if it doesn't turn out well, I'll probably head straight into the ICU. What's wrong with him or is it with me that he can't seem to like me the way I want him to like me? Am I really that plain-looking that he doesn't notice me? What's with the "I-want-a-girl-taller-than-me" rule? Is he just teasing me or he really prefers tall girls? So if that's what he wants, then I hope he finds a girl version of Yao Ming!!! Okay...I was just kidding. Can't a five-foot-one girl be perfect for him? Sigh. What about his promise that he's going to treat me out so he can give me his Christmas present? I hope he fulfills that or else I wouldn't talk to him anymore. I just want to get to know him better. I'm starting to like him...he's just so comfortable to talk with. I can say anything and everything I want to without care and he's there to listen. Why does he have to make me fall for him if he doesn't really like me? Sigh. Is this it or am I just on the rebound because of Hub? I think not. Lex had always been special to me...what with his phone-lecture antic...his super suplado ways and his braces! Yes, I admit that the few times I saw him, he somewhat reminded me of Hub only because they both possess single-syllable surnames but the similarity ends there. I started to like him because of who he is---the no-nonsense, "feeling" and smart guy who made me raise my eyebrow up the ceiling with his lecture on my professional duties! I started to notice that this "Del Monte Four Seasons in a can"- drinking engineering manager is actually nice. Sigh, again... I don't know if I'm turning him off with my makulit antics but I just want him to realize that I like him and that if he gives himself (and me, too) the chance then probably, just probably, he'll find the One he had been looking for. I just wish this season will "be filled w/ everything that means most to me and the coming year be filled w/ everything I'm hoping for"...just like what he sent me yesterday at 8:33 pm. How would I know if he likes me, too? I really hope we'll go out before the year ends. If we do, then, there might be a chance but if he doesn't make time for me, it only means, I should get lost. I am praying that it's the former. I don't want to spend the Year of the Dog in the ICU. ;) So Lex, when are we going out?;)


Although I'm currently unattached, I still manage to smile because I just found two new friends. Two insane, unaffected people who are as nice as they are naughty. Dac and Kat are exactly the friends I need. They never fail to light up my somewhat boring routine. I'm just so glad to have them as friends. My seven-week stay with that company seemed years because of those two!=)
I hope we'll be friends forever...


Happy Birthday Baby Jesus and thank You for everything You've given us!!!=) This Christmas is one happy Christmas and I'm hoping the New Year will be, too.
Merry Christmas everyone!!!

Being Happy...

I feel so giddy and light even if I'm dead tired last night. I got home way past midnight from our company's Christmas party (from Sta. Rosa, Laguna...apparently, our Big Boss wanted to show everyone where all our efforts are going so he chose to have it in one of the clubhouses of the company-owned golf city...in short, he's just tight on the budget, period.) and had to go to work this morning. I can't explain it but I just feel like this day is one happy day and I'm right. Even if I woke up late, I still managed to get to work by 9:13! =) Then, at lunch time, my officemates and I went down the mall to eat at a nice little restaurant, the Little Poon. I haven't had a taste of that kind of food in the company of makulit people in a long time so it was really great. We had Chili Shrimps (my all-time favorite crustacean, is it a crustacean?, whatever...for as long as I'm satisfied with that lunch...yum,yum...), Mandarin Fish and Buttered Broccoli, Garlic Rice and Red Iced Tea. That was really a feast!!!=) Hmm...now I know why I decided to work for this company and not the one at Shaw.=) Now, I'm starting to love my work...=) Hmm...I'm just waiting for one more thing, er, person to make me happier...hehe!=p

The Optimist is Back!!! =)

It took me a month to finally realize that the optimistic me is back!!!=p Thank God that I found the right, take note, the RIGHT (not perfect) job. It may not be THAT big but I am happy with it. I'm glad I found new friends in three of my officemates. They make my work life enjoyable. Actually, I'm starting to love my work which means that I'm not going to work a day in my life as soon as I fall deeply with it. Hehe. =p I just hope I'll make things right. I do not want to disappoint my parents and Raf and the girls and... everybody else who believes in me. I've come to my senses, I do not feel for Raf the way I feel, rather felt, for Hubert. He's just so nice that I like him. He's like a makulit big brother I never had. (Hey, am I not the makulit kid sister of someone else...?=p) One thing's for sure, I'm going to like my stay with this company for as long as I have those three nice people around. They'll keep my sanity intact. =) One thing more, Dac's right, Hubert doesn't deserve me. I'm going to move on and this time, I'm going to make sure that it's for real.