Waah!!!

I think I just lost him...for good. He did not even bother to reply. I guess this only means the end of my wish...I would never see my "future kids" happily playing with him while I prepare their breakfast...I probably blew my chance of that future. I think I made my hopes too high for my own good. He's NOT JUST INTO ME. Plain and simple. ='(

New Year, New Hair Style!

I just had my hair cut last night (it will be Chinese New Year in a week so I had to...new year, new look, hopefully more blessings...=p). Probably I had it a little "too short", just above my shoulders but heck, I've been sporting the parang pina-salon super straight long hair for the last twelve months and I've had long hair for more than three-fourths of my life! I think I needed a new look. Besides, 80% of women at the office sport the same straight, boring hair. I have to look a bit different, y' know! Hehehe. =p I really hope this new 'do will do wonders...calling Lex, when are we gonna eat out? It's been ages since you made that promise...you have to keep that or else I'm not going to talk to you anymore...that is if I can even bear the thought of not talking to you...pathetic me...=(

What Now?

I don't know if I'm being too optimistic or just plain dumb. I'm hoping that Lex likes me, too. But if he really does, why the heck am I the one exerting more effort? Why am I the one doing the texting? I know I like him and he considers me a friend but I don't know if this is going up the next step or we'll really end up as friends...or more so, as "big brother and makulit kid sister" to each other...tsk...tsk...me and my palpak move!!! Aargh!!! What am I to do? I hope I can resolve this before February ends. Well, I'm giving him until the end of February to ask me out and "make things clear". If by that time, he still doesn't make a move, then, we will remain as "siblings" for life. Ouch!!! Sigh. Lex, please make it easier for me. Don't make me fall deeper for you if you do not intend to catch me. This is so unfair. So please...