Numb

I've been feeling numb (quite "oxymoronic", isn't it?) for a little less than a month now. It all started when I realized that I've been reading the wrong signals. He never really liked me the way I thought he did. It was so stupid of me to think that he likes me...as in really likes me. Why didn't I sense that he just treats me like a kid sister? Of course he will, I told him to. Stupid me! Why can't I be frank for once? I had the chance but I blew it. Big time. Why didn't I tell him that I like him? Why didn't I tell him that I was serious when I told him I missed him?